Have you ever had one of those days when you’re just feeling overwhelmed, and the stress of your world is making you nuts? I had a whole week like that. I have felt lousy all week, and just couldn’t seem to shake it. I think it’s the usual SAD (seasonal affective disorder) that hits me around this time of year, every year lately, which could indicate a move to a drier, sunnier locale is in my future. I know the sun should be shining, because come on; it’s May already for crying out loud. The continual rain and the never-ending grey skies have the ability to suck the joy out of me, and I just can’t seem to get excited or even interested in anything!
Thank you God! The sun is supposed to come out this weekend! It’s far overdue, and could be just what I need to get back to my usual merry self. I’m going to break in my new BBQ and rotisserie, pull out the outside furniture, and finish planting my summer flowers. I can almost see little peeks of blue sky coming out today, and I’m hoping against hope that the weatherman’s predictions will come true!
Oh look! A SHADOW!!!!! That’s exciting!
Something else I did today was to take some time for myself. Much as I don’t like to admit it, I’m stressed about all the events I have coming up in the next couple weeks. I’m not a perfectionist It starts next week with our Community 101 Awards Ceremony, then there’s the Drug Summit and our PSA Premiere on the16th, the Siletz Awards dinn
er and Premier on the 18th, and then Prom on the 19th. Oh, and did I mention I have finals that week? It’s going to be a challenge to find time for everything I need to get done, and I’m worried about things not turning out.
So today, I am relaxing. I took the day off from work, and thus far have spent the day messing around and shopping for prom shoes, which I found…super cute, and they’ll go great with my dress and the theme. I know it’s odd for an almost 50 yr old woman to be excited about looking good in a prom dress, but I’ve lost almost 15lbs, and although I am still hovering just outside of my healthy zone, I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished. I’m finally starting to embrace my curves, and I love that some days I look pretty hot for an old broad! I doubt if I‘ll ever wear a bikini again, but I want to be ready for that cruise we’re taking next winter. I still have some extra flab to get rid of, but I’ve noticed I’m getting a waist again which means I’m doing something right.
The best part is that I am becoming healthier. I know I need to push myself again to lose the last 5 lbs. I’ve set my goal weight for 150. I know that’s only 5lbs less than my max, but I’m thinking that might be my happy weight. I’ve been maintaining at right around 155 for the past couple weeks, and it’s been pretty easy to do. I have to remember to continue being conscientious about recording what I eat. Some days I get really lazy about it, and I just can’t be bothered to track, but I know tracking really helps me to not over do it, so I just have to bite the bullet and do it.
I also need to bite the bullet and get my behind up and exercising again. Same old thing there: I so exhausted after dinner and homework, that exercise is the 
last thing I want to do. I was also home late almost every day this week which didn’t help at all. I guess walking up and down the halls all day long does provide some benefit!
Anyway, that’s my update for this week. I might not be able to get in here every day, but if I’m making my students write in their blogs every week, the least I can do is write in mine once a week. That’s going to be my goal for the next couple of weeks, and then we’ll see as summer approaches, and my schedule eases up.
See you next week!
My class’s Community 101 Awards Ceremony was this week. It was amazing, and the kids did a fantastic job! All that practicing paid off big time! We were able to help a lot of organizations that serve our community, and we made a difference in people’s lives.
